Monday, February 9, 2009

Who am I?

Often times in my life I have wondered who and what I am. Child of GOD, yes. Good son, I hope. Good brother, I have my days. Strong, yet compassionate, I try. There are more things that help define me, but I try every day to be the best person I can. I am a firefighter and I love it. But I do hate when people say that makes me a hero! I am no hero, I am just some guy, doing my job. No one calls a garbage man a hero, yet he helps people every day. Him and I are just doing our jobs. Yes, when run into burning buildings while others run out. But that is only because at some point my brain told me that was smart. Not sure why? Dont get me wrong, I love doing my job, and I love my brothers that do it too. I just wish people would see us as humans too. When people see us hurt or sad, they tend to say we are just weak. But we dont have super powers, we have hearts and they hurt just like urs. I lost a best friend last year, not a firefighter, and I really had to step back and evaluate my life. Jared taught me alot about loving and not being afraid of hurting. I had always thought as a firefighter we were expected to never show feeling or emotion, and I tried to bottle it all up inside. But he would always tell me, "if you are cut you bleed. Kicked, it hurts. Especially in the nuts." haha I love you Jared. Ever since you left I have hurt, deep down in. I tried to bottle it up, but I cant carry that any more. Him and I would talk every week, he was my accountability partner, and I was his. But it grew to be much deeper. I miss him and I try to live my life just like he did, always ALIVE IN CHRIST, and to be that fun loving guy he was. I am sure I have hurt a few people along the way but I am really trying. So, if you ever see a fire truck running code, pray for them, that could be the last time anyone ever sees them. If you see a firefighter out walking around, tell them hey, and pray for them. Sometimes we are going through some really rough stuff in life and all we need is someone to say hello, and let us know we are human, and others care. We see and experience alot, some of it is harder to get over than other stuff. But we just need someone to pray GOD will give us the strength to get through another day. Sorry I know this is all a little random, but it is just some thoughts rolling around in my head. GOD bless you and my I never have to see you in my uniform!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Visit to the Fire House



Today my grandparents came out and toured my fire house. We had a good time together. I showed them our new engine and gave them a look at where I live and a little better look into my actual life and a firefighter.